Faith, Hope and Love

Just returned from another visit to my doctor in LA. This was not a "routine" check up as planned since we thought my meds had spotted fighting the Lyme. I have been unable to drive long distances (meaning out of La Porte) due to extreme dizzy spells, my face had returned to becoming numb, the shooting pain throughout my body came back - is has not fun at all to deal with and the fatigue and other "Lyme" type issues that you've heard me talk about - you get the picture.
With the stress of Shane's pending EGD results - which were clear THANK GOD!!! - PTO things, Ladies Night Out duties, Mary Kay nightmare and other family "issues" I have not been taking the best care of ME. Trying my best to be the best wife, mom, friend, and servant but sometimes the planner doesnt say "MANDY" on it LOL.
So we were driving up today with FAITH - that God would take care of us and guide the doctor. HOPE - that the Lyme was just mad at me and we could continue on the path we had been on cause I had been doing so well - this just hit me last weekend like a train. And LOVE.... for Shane the most amazing husband - I know we all say we have wonderful husband and I know we do -BUT I can not tell you how blessed - words escape me! Love for Sheri and Chris who took care of my kiddos and had to put up with me leaving in tears and checking up (only once) but still - thank you!! Love for Steph for sharing her HOPE before and after the visit :) I was blessed with 2 sisters by birth and then more again in marriage :)
So the findings .....
1. My body was more than mad - it was ticked off and TIRED!!! HOWEVER the meds were still working so I dont have to start all over : ) PTL! He added some kept some the same and wants to try a few different try things.
2. The doctor was 1 1/2 hours late seeing us.... not great right esp when you get up at 3:30 AM to drive to another state - here's the GOOD part of the message - he spent almost 2 hours with us!! He answered EVERY question and even came up with new ones. Do I have more questions now - yes I always do after leaving and driving ( ok riding for 4 1/2) home but the point is HOW many doctor would do that??? HOW BLESSED am I?? That's awesome!! And all I have to do is text him tom and he'll call back to help :) Oh and I got a copy of my labs so that was really COOL to see in black and white my Lyme results! Crazy stuff! 26 years of not knowing what was wrong or being told it was something else and now God's timing for some reason is falling together??? Road maps from heaven would be a wonderful thing ; )
3. There's tons more but it's too much "medical-ish" stuff - if you really care to know - Id love to tell you cause he really thinks outside the box and he's more concerned with getting me well than writing me a RX and sending me home - so it was a great trip.
4. Do you know how wonderful it was it sit in the car with my honey for that long and talk?? and sing and laugh and worship and just enjoy time together!!!


God knows what He is doing!!! In every way!! Do I wish to get sick and drive almost 9 hours in a day to go see a doctor NO! And I was talking to Shane today on the way - I still had not found the silver lining in all this. Dont get me WRONG!!!! I HAVE FAITH! and HOPE! I know this is GOING to work out for the glory of GOD. Dont know how??? But I know it will! I know it's God who is healing me trough prayer and His word and through His guidance of the doctor and the meds he's using - all this I know. I was just looking for a silver lining for now ;) And I think I found it.
Without this trip Shane and I would not have been able to spend the ENTIRE day together - yes we spend time together - but we get busy doing. Its normal - we have 2 kids and a dog and lives. Even on his days off when we are all home together we dont find ourselves in the same room nonstop for 4 hours straight with no distractions. Without this trip I would not realize the extend of the bond I have created with Sheri and hope to created with all my sister in laws. Over the past year she and I have become very close and I thank GOD for her being in my life!! She is truly a sister God placed in my life!! Without this trip I would not have seen the Hope in Stephanie's eyes and voice as she encouraged me as I was leaving for me trip. We all have crosses to carry in our lives - they are ALL different but if we are lucky enough, we are all walking together to the same CROSS and Im happy to have a new member on our journey!
For that - tonight Im grateful for this winding journey that we're on. It's not easy but He never said it would be - Just that HE would never leave us!!!
Today had been about faith, hope and love - and the greatest of these IS LOVE :)